At 7:00 p.m., the lights in the office building resembled a silent sea of stars. Amy stared at the proposal on her screen\u2014now in its seventh revision\u2014as the time in the lower right corner jumped to 19:03. She rubbed her aching eyes, and her phone screen lit up with a voice message from her mother: \u201cIt\u2019s your dad\u2019s birthday today. Remember to give him a call.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She tapped the message and listened to it twice, but didn\u2019t press the call button. It wasn\u2019t that she\u2019d forgotten; she just suddenly didn\u2019t know what tone to use. Earlier that day, her supervisor had publicly called her out for a data error, and now, in the evening, she was supposed to pretend everything was normal and wish her father a happy birthday. She was afraid that the moment she spoke, her voice would tremble.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Amy got up and headed to the break room to make herself a cup of tea. The coffee machine was emitting a low hum. As she stood there waiting for the water to boil, she suddenly felt as if something were gently pressing against her chest\u2014it didn\u2019t hurt, but she couldn\u2019t catch her breath. She looked down at her hands; her fingertips still carried the coolness of the keyboard, and the edges of her nails were slightly peeling. She recalled leaving home that morning: in the mirror, the corners of her eyes had been tinged with a faint bluish hue, like shadows soaked in rain.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The water boiled, and she poured it into a cup, but didn\u2019t drink it. She just stood there, watching the steam dissipate bit by bit, like some kind of silent farewell. In that moment, she suddenly felt like crying. Not because of any specific incident, but because of this day-after-day \u201cI\u2019m fine\u201d\u2014I\u2019m fine, I can handle it; I\u2019m fine, I\u2019m not tired; I\u2019m fine, I\u2019m doing great. But she\u2019d been saying \u201cI\u2019m fine\u201d for so long that even she had come to believe it\u2014until, in a single instant, her body reacted before her mind could, and a tiny crack appeared.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She didn\u2019t cry. She simply set the cup down, leaned against the kitchen counter, closed her eyes, and let that wave of emotion wash over her ankles like a tide, then slowly recede. Three minutes later, she opened her eyes, finished her tea, returned to her desk, corrected the last punctuation mark in the proposal, and clicked \u201cSend.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
As she walked out of the building, the night breeze was slightly cool. She looked up at the sky; the city\u2019s light pollution made the stars almost invisible, but she knew they were there. Her phone lit up again\u2014another missed call from her mother. This time, she dialed back.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cMom, happy birthday,\u201d she heard her own voice say\u2014steady and gentle, like the surface of a lake that had never been ruffled by the wind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Her mother laughed on the other end: \u201cWhy\u2019d you wait so long to call? Your dinner\u2019s gone cold.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cI was working late,\u201d she said. \u201cI\u2019m back now.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
After hanging up, she walked slowly toward the subway station. Her steps were neither light nor heavy. She knew life would go on tomorrow. But tonight, she allowed herself, for those three minutes, to shatter gently\u2014and then quietly put herself back together.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It turns out that an adult\u2019s breakdown doesn\u2019t have to be earth-shattering. It\u2019s just a certain twilight, a cup of tea left untouched, a phone call never made, and a quiet pause that no one notices.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And then, she keeps walking.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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